“Meaningless! Meaningless!... Utterly meaningless!
Everything is meaningless!” (Ecclesiastes 1:2)
I really hope you enjoyed that encouraging, positive
beginning to the blogs of 2013.
Now let’s be honest here, I’m generally a fairly positive
person (I even get chastised for enthusiasm at work). However, yesterday was
officially deemed to be ‘Blue Monday’, the most depressing day of the year (or
something like that).
Now who knows how they reached that kind of consensus
(and if you ask me, the way to perk everyone up on a Monday morning is not to
announce that this is the day everyone will feel depressed). But I’m also going
to be honest and say that this verse did
pass through my mind as I trudged home tonight through the slushy remnants of
snow and constant freezing temperatures.
It’s stupidly cold, and whilst London is still exciting, I
guess in some senses the novelty is wearing off (well it had to, sooner or
later). Don’t get me wrong, I’m still very grateful to be here and I LOVE London
– but aside from anything else, it’s too darn cold and dark to do much once a
day at the office is done.
5 months into the job, and I start questioning where
I am and where I’m going. Actually, let’s just do that for the whole of life. WHERE
ARE YOU GOING IN YOUR LIFE? Eh? EH?
But just take one minute to stop; breathe; fix my eyes on
Him again, and the blindingly obvious suddenly dawns on me, yet again.
This
whole putting my future (and come to that, my present) in God’s hands and for
His glory – it’s not about my career development, or wearing a big white dress,
or future happiness (whatever that even looks like). It’s about Him and me,
doing life right now, for His glory. Right now, I don’t even have to be able to
see further than tomorrow. He goes before me, and that makes everything
possible.
And, breathe.
